Last day of practicum ...

The Practicum Trainees (Helmi missing from the photo)

My kiddos have started their exams, thus our time table was suspended. I didnt get a chance to go into the class on my very day... So.... i borrowed 5 mins from their science teacher to bid farewell. Passed the chocs to Jeroy my monitor and i left. After that, i've gotten to know that the form teacher, who is also my very good CT can spare me the last period to talk to them. As i didnt want to disrupt their revision, i went in during the last 10 mins, and they were all waiting for me ! =) Surprise surprise. Took the class photo at the very last min, bell had already rung. I'm glad that i'm still able to take a class photo with them. Somehow, i can bond well with this class, which reminded me of my 2007 batch of p1/2. Miss them !

Oh but somehow i didnt get to see my 6E. I just passed the chocs to my CT. There are really interesting people in 6E but they are also the people who gave me the most problem when i only see them 2 periods a week.

Didnt really eat lunch the entire day, cos i was very packed. Class after class... and my last day ended at 6.30p.m as there was central marking. I marked P4 English paper on Thurs and for my last day, i was assigned to scan and collate results of all the OAS. Luckily the machine was not v. cooperative, the whole process was so slow that i do not need to mark the P6 math papers =P (*I was given 2 tasks, for which i need to complete the OAS first before going to join the rest in marking the p6 papers. PHEW)

Rushed home and return to TM to have a dinner with my CT, as well as 2 other "future colleagues" as well as the 2 other comrades , Hazel and Shirui. Chatted all the way till 10pm?

1 more month, we'll be back to yumps.

Very soon

CLEARED !

Allow me to have a good loud laugh first.


MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


I've finally cleared all my 8 lesson observations ! There is no good word/phrases that can describe the feeling of clearing lesson observations ! =)
Not that it is really that tough to prepare for lesson observation but then yea, its just that something is off ur shoulders. I think fellow NIE mates will know :P

1 final one to go ...
Sup lesson ob ! Yay !

3 more weeks to end of practicum

(*i think i will miss my 3B tho)

Start to Countdown

Its Wednesday !
Looking forward to the long weekends !

Yes, i've cleared my SS NIE assignment and i missed out on the rubrics totally. So yea, i might not do well for SS. I dont think i will fail but yep, probably this will be my only C in my 1-year journey? Ha. Its okay. I've learnt how to let go by not setting too high expections .Thats too hard on myself. Thats probably why i wasnt satisfied with my results last sem. Hmmmmm come to think about it, the more we expect, the more worse off we'll feel at the end of the day.

I would be able to clear my syllabus for Eng and Math by next week! Is it fast or is it too fast? Hmmmmm its only week 4 and i'm done with teaching. Actually i am really not rushing. 2 weeks for 1 English unit. I started Term 2 work last term week 9. So to count, i've used 6 weeks for 3 units. As for math, i just did a class quiz with my class. I would just need to clear 1 "ambigious" area that some students just couldnt get it.

Thats the good thing abt high ability class. They grasp concepts fast. You wont need to spend time keep on repeating and still leaving clueless pupils.

By the end of this week, which is tomorrow, i would have cleared (6 + 1) observations! Woohoo! 3 more to go (Math, SS and Sup) and i'm ready to get back to NIE.

I shall clear my last 2 observations next week and wait for my sup liao..
6th week @ Yumps already. 4 more weeks !
Am i happy or am i very happy?

Oh and my family, they're returning back to SG tml night! Adds on to the good mood.

Swimming is good de-stresser

Water calms one down, rather effectively, at least to me.
Whenever i feel frustrated or when i was stumbled by own thinking process, i will take a bath.
Letting the water run down me, keep me at peace.
Usually when i was bathing, was i able to come up with new ideas or solutions to solve the existing problem. Too bad, exams will never ever be held in the bathroom.

Yesterday i went for a swim after my usual afternoon nap. (Yes, i do take afternoon naps now because on normal days i slept as late as 3 a.m. and wake up at 6 a.m. , which was, obviously not enough.) Anyway, i enjoyed my session. The water was warm, thanks to the hot weather in the day. The feeling of staying in the water, was really good! For the rest of my night, i was able to really relax myself, playing my peppermint(psp), without touching anything that is related to school. I slept early too!

And...

Today is Friday !
End of my 5th week @ Yumps.
5 more weeks before i return back to NIE.

Ups and DOWNS.

In life, there are no 100% success, neither are there 100% failure.
On bad days: We just have to stay strong and believe in ourselves that we will tide through, no matter how bad our day have been.
On good days: We just have to stay humble and sustain our achievements, no matter how good you think you have done.

I'd say that i am considered as a calm person, no matter how stressed or emotionally challenged i may be. The stillness in me, i'm grateful, for that the reason why i can still manage to get myself up no matter how many times i've stumbled.

To date, i've never felt that my life was ever smooth sailing.
I may be strong in handling my daily life. I speak, i rant, i grumble and i shout. Yes, i have my avenue in venting everything out from me. However, i felt that everytime when i have gone through hard times in my life, the more reserved and quiet i became. Is this psychologically healthy? People who knew me 12 years ago as compared who know me in these recent years, will have a wide contrast in the words they used to describe my character. Sometimes i do feel that i can be rather psychologically unhealthy. Few years back when i was still in NUS, my kor suggested to my mother that i should consult a psycharist. Well, i am not mentally unstable, just perhaps having too much unneccessary things congested in the tiny brain of mine. I've been given the talent to be a thinker, so much so that i think its too overwhelming for me to bear, seriously.

Definitely, as i've always been posting, humans tend to magnify the darker side of things and i belong to the majority. No matter how positive i may deemed to be, on the contrary, i'm the opposite. The more we dwell, the worst we'll get. And on top of all these cliche phrases that we use to stay positive, its always easier said than done. It is a process that we all need to go through, because we have emotions. We need to feel the struggle, the loss, the pain, the saddness.Of course, i know how to be optimistic but emotions are usually not within my control. The more i expect, the more i want, the more disappointed i am.

So today, i feel disappointed in myself and i cant find the exact reason to why i feel so rotten today so i'll assumed that its accumulated snowball, started right at the beginning of my practicum.

Yes, my CT is good.
Yes, my class is good.
Yes, my lesson plans are relevant.

But, i dont feel good.
Where is the sense of satisfaction i had 1 year ago? I was happy then but i am not happy now.

I need a break. My break is coming.











But after that short break, thunderstorm will be awaiting.
Depressed.