Most of the times, we try to convince ourselves that giving is more satisfying than receiving. Therefore in order to feel happy, we should never expect any returns or to measure equilty to the very bit. But seriously, sometimes i question could it be that humans are optimistic by nature that we think that this world is just so simple - you give, the other party happy, you're happy.
More often than ever, there are other complications. The hidden side of the story. I would say,unfortunately, the dark side. Just a simple illustration. Lets say you may emotionally or even physically consider that A is your very close friend and on the surface, you do feel that it is somehow recipocrate. However, what if one day you realise the truth is that, A has been talking bad about you behind your back? Of course, i have not encountered such situations myself. Either my friends are too good or i have been deceived till this second. I'm not trying to say that everyone is scheming or anything but humans are just a kind of mammal who/which tends to think alot and be subdued to "external" circumstances/environment around them.
(Tell me now, who doesnt have evil thoughts before? And why do you have them? To put it simply or in a more common context, who have never thought of winning your best friend(perhaps) in terms of academic?) Hmmmmmm it makes me wonder.... if your friend scored say slightly better than you, why dont you celebrate with him/her rather than thinking it in your heart that "why am i still not better than you?" Strange strange.
Oh... i shouldnt digress so much. Back to the case scenario of A. I've really seen such cases happening. So i conclude. There must be something that is "useful" of that person that make him/her as a friend to you. A harsh conclusion i know. But think about it, isnt it true?
How often do you think of me ?
Or...
Why do you think of me?
Answer that question, then you will know how true you are to me.
I'll leave it as it is here.
I'm quite upset over certain things and i just couldnt get over the "互相利用" negative thought. Enlighten me please.
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